Tuesday, May 21, 2013


I can't describe my guilt.  I am ashamed of my insignificant prayers.  My cushy life is too great for me to accept.  I don't feel like I deserve it.  All of those families out there who have lost their kids, mothers, fathers... I don't understand.  Why do we have such an easy life?  People in other countries don't have food, shelter... they are suffering from disease and starvation.  Then there's this country... So many things have happened this year.  Why have we been spared?  It seems as though every family in this country has been effected one way or another from all of these tragedies.  Jordan sees heartache every time he is at work.  I have an iPhone, a house, plenty of food, plenty of clothes, a computer, TV's, cars, shoes for my feet, shampoo for my hair, make up to look pretty, three different types of strollers, lots of time with my husband, a beautiful HEALTHY baby boy, family close by willing to help at the drop of a hat, margaritas when I feel so inclined, delicious iced coffee in my fridge, a juicer to help with my new "clean eating" goal, a big camera to capture all of my life's little precious moments, good friends to call when I need someone to talk to or someone to hang out with, shopping centers around every corner, restaurants... the list of luxuries is ENDLESS!!  Yet there is so much suffering in this world.  I feel so guilty.  Why am I allowed all of these things??? Am I thankful?  Yes!  But my only question is why?  It is a major struggle thinking about all of the darkness and heartache in this world and still being able to enjoy what I have?  I complain about things too!  What gives me the right to complain when I can't buy that shirt or not get my iPhone the week I want to get it, or not have internet working when I NEED to get online?  I am a spoiled little brat.  We all are.


Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Our world

I'm done with Facebook because on Facebook you can't speak your mind without hearing a bunch of crap from your "friends" as to why your opinion is wrong.  Everybody is entitled to their own opinion and I really like to be able to express my own opinion.  

The following is a very precise description of the world we live in today.

  Romans 1:18-32"But God shows his anger from heaven against all sinful, wicked people who suppress the truth by their wickedness.... Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn't worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools. And instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people and birds and animals and reptiles.
So God abandoned them to do whatever shameful things their hearts desired. As a result, they did vile and degrading things with each other's bodies. They traded the truth about God for a lie. So they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise! Amen.That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires. Even the women turned against the natural way to have sex and instead indulged in sex with each other. And the men, instead of having normal sexual relations with women, burned with lust for each other. Men did shameful things with other men, and as a result of this sin, they suffered within themselves the penalty they deserved.Since they thought it foolish to acknowledge God, he abandoned them to their foolish thinking and let them do things that should never be done. Their lives became full of every kind of wickedness, sin, greed, hate, envy, murder, quarreling, deception, malicious behavior, and gossip. They are backstabbers, haters of God, insolent, proud, and boastful. They invent new ways of sinning, and they disobey their parents. They refuse to understand, break their promises, are heartless, and have no mercy. They know God's justice requires that those who do these things deserve to die, yet they do them anyway. Worse yet, they encourage others to do them, too." (NLT)

Ps... this isn't my opinion.  It's fact.